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For all my positive thinking and progress last week, I hit the wall this weekend. I have plenty of things to blame it on — mostly, the stress of being a single parent with no end in sight. (Last I heard, DH is coming back August 4. That’s 3 weekends in a row — not to mention weeks — where I’m sole caregiver. I love the boy and all, but sometimes he drives me nuts. And this weekend he was sick, with diarrhea, which made caregiving especially trying.)
So, after eating one too many JC meals Saturday, I picked up the phone and dialled Domino’s Pizza. I ordered their chicken kickers and a medium pizza (the smallest size they deliver). Thankfully, I managed to stop before I finished either one. I had only (?) 3 slices of pizza and left a couple of pieces of chicken in the container. Then I left them out on the table to ensure I wouldn’t be tempted to have more. On the one hand, it’s a disaster. Surely fried chicken with ranch dressing and pizza will negate any positive efforts I’ve made. Then again, I stopped well before I once would have, which is some sort of victory. (Is this positive thinking, or fooling myself?)
This morning, I grabbed the boy and the Kelty backpack carrier and, despite record breaking temps in the area, we hit the trail. I drove us up to a lovely trailhead in Oakland, which Mia showed me a while back. The trail is very wooded, therefore shady, but it was still super hot and dusty. Plus I was thirsty, I needed to pee, and the boy is really getting heavy. I made it about 30 minutes in all, which isn’t great. But it was still good, and good to get out there. Eating since then has been pretty decent.
Thanks for the encouragement, all. One day at a time.
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