Another Bullet-Pointed Post

Here’s what’s up in my corner of the universe…

• The boy has weaned himself. Talk about an emotional ordeal. Every time I’d offer him the chance to nurse, he’d chomp on me with his one little chomper. Then he’d pull away. I felt a bit… rejected. Thinking “breast is best,” etc. and taking advice from lots of Web sites and other moms, I considered it a “nursing strike” which would surely pass. So I pumped, and agonized. Thank goodness I finally just made peace with it. Biting and rejecting was just the boy’s way of saying he preferred the sure, steady milk supply (and chompability) of his bottles, which he always got at day care. So… my little boy is growing up.
  
• The weaning seems to have sent my hormones into a tailspin. Due to these hormones, and to not a little depression over feelings of rejection and failure, I seemed to gain 2 lbs every day. It struck me… I’ve got to get serious about this Weight Watchers thing, or I’m going to balloon even higher than I already am.
  
• Recommitted myself. Have already had some not-so-great days but I’m definitely doing much better than before. Went for a long walk the other night. Went for a swim on Sunday (my first in ages). Bought some WW water mugs (32 oz) and have been trying to kick the high-sodium diet cream soda habit. (Bad for the kid, too, to see me sucking down sodas all the time.) So far, so good.
  
• A big conference is upcoming, but at least I’m home every night. DH and I are working out the logistics of taking care of the boy in the evenings, so I can stay out and do my work-related socializing. Really looking forward to being a serious grown-up, with no breastfeeding worries, at work. Bonus: my clothes already fit a bit better now that my boobs aren’t drastically changing sizes all day. Gotta like that.
  
• Been thinking a bit about my goals. I think the weaning was really a big step forward in terms of reclaiming my body and getting on with my life as an individual, instead of just as a mom.
  

Yup, that’s about it. I have wanted to blog about these things about a million times but I’m always so busy. Speaking of which… sleep calls. Thanks for being there.

another on-the-mark post

Hate to be such a blog-moocher but the latest post on Adventures of a Born Again Gym Bunny is so right on. Not that I have the “losing weight” part of things going well, or anything. But it is the mindless, out-of-control eating-as-coping that I’d like to get rid of. The problem, and not the symptom, is what I’d really like to focus on. I think YP is doing things right by really pondering the deeper issues. That’s really the difficult stuff, after all.